"well if you cant afford it, so dont" thats what my mom said when i watched recap of beyonce's concert in jakarta on tv. i was furious, sad, sorry, and feel like singing.
i felt all of that at the same time!
how could i?? NOT watched BEYONCE! concert in JAKARTA


i dont know what to say, i feel my heart sank everytime i talk about it. well maybe i sound sugarcoated it, but true! thats exaclty what i feel. its bad enough that i dont watch the black eyed peas. but beyonce?? ahhh... gosh.. i was going to buy the ticket with my cousins, we already planned everything, but suddenly she cancelled it! i dont know why, even tho the day before , she even wanted to give me some extra money for the ticket! well maybe thats why she cancelled it, she changed her mind. but whatever. i dont care, i can pay it myself, i just needed someone to go with. because all of my friends were watching it in 'diamonds' (the ticket price : 2.000.000-3.000.000 rupiah) they watched it with cellebs and all. ahh
and i just heard about the show from my friends, and its sounded like the best concert ever! ahh.. dammit.

okayy.. enough about beyonce already. well its been a while since i wrote my last blog... its because my internet was kinda over limited. but now is the new month. and a lot to catch up to. hmm, where do i start.. in the last few weeks everything prettymuch the same, but even better. i have a great couple groups of friends, my family is great, my school is good also, even tho im in the middle of the first try out this week. well the thing that not went so well is my love life. not working at all, well theres couple of guys that my friends intorduce me with, but none of them is my type. the only one is my crush. i just call him K okay? but he's still close with his ex, like dating but without the status. he's really gorgeus, funny, and soo my type. ahh..

but i dont know if im ready to dating yet, even tho im already single quite awhile, but i dont feel like dating yet, first maybe because i havent found him yet, and second.. usually my friends who dating always complaining about their girls or boyfirends to me, and the problem is really small, but they always make it big at dating. thats why. i said to my self "thanks god im single(for now)" right now i dont need the dating drama, my life is already complicated as it is but i love it. well i dont know if im find the right guy. and maybe i fall in love? hahahaha who knows?

One thing that bother me lately.. i have a friend, lets say her name is anaya and we kinda hated weak girls, meaning girlfriends who afraid of that boy and okay if the boys treat them like a bird in the cage. but anaya fall in love with this boy, and she turned out to be the week girls now!
i cannot believe that, and im afraid i'll turn out to be the weak girl. but maybe thats the problem i havent found a boyfriend. i should learn to let my guard down little bit, but im afraid that i might end up getting hurt.

well, so many story so little time, i'll see you later,
XOXO
TRL